wow man.. i havent blogged at all this  month.. well, here we go..

ok... i bought hair dye yesterday .. actually chris picked out the color.. wow... i tell ya.... my hair was bright red!!! ugh!!!!!! i looked like a damn freak!!!!! so i had to go to the store to buy another one! sux... now its reddish brown.. not that bad.. ok.. chris i love you but seriously i wont ask you anymore.. haha love you!

i haven't had a good meal in a long time. i'm trying to lose weight.. i started about two weeks ago.. man.. no rice.. no soda.its hard!! i miss FOOD!! its ok.. its all gonna be worth it in the end. i just wanna lose like 10 pounds then i'm happy.

this weekend is gonna be crazy.. two picnics to go to on saturday and chris's performance on sunday.. its gonna be fun. you guys should try to come watch LEGACI in the city on sunday.

ALSO, my mom is coming back from the Philippines tomorrow night! YAY!! i actually miss her... whoa.. she said she bought me some stuff.. i can't wait..

oh yeah to alvin and ate murr and of course behbz, thanks for sunday.. i had soo much fun at the party. we were quite on the BOLD side. hahah huh alvin?? ya like that? you BOLD star!! ?Lolz

ciao..till my next blog

i havent blogged in a while, i know.. oh well.. lets start with the ALANIS concert.. man it was fun.. had a blast.. i have to admit, i enjoyed the BARENAKED LADIES as well.. they're pretty silly guys.. we had some pretty good seats too!

work today was kinda hectic... its end of the month.. its always hectic at the end of the month.. sux coz i did soo much better in june.... we didnt have that many loan submissions coz i guess the rates were pretty high..i dont even think im getting my commission.. coz i'd have to fund at least 40.. after that i get $20 for each file.... MAN!!!! i dont even think i made 40!!!! hahah sux for me.. to top it off, my company usually gives us bonuses every month when we meet the goal..they give us cash and people line up like its christmas.. hehe..  i thought we were gonna get $200 cash today.. but i guess i was wrong!!! ugh!!! oh well.. its ok.. we get fed every now and then and the last two days of the month, they always have food catered for us.. oh well.. in august hopefully we'll get some money...

sorry enough about work.... anyhoo... i dont know what im doing this weekend...any ideas??

well.. im back from tahoe everybody.... it was nice.. very good weekend....man today was rough.. it started last night when i had a HUGE fight with my dad.... i dont want to bore you guys with the details but thanks to CHRIS and HIS LOVING FAMILY, they let me stay there last night.....

alright, lets start venting , shall we?? i just dont understand how im soo close to my family  but at the same time, it always seems like they don't understand how i am. i love to go out but i know that i have responsibilities at home. before i go out, i make sure that everything is clean... i cook food for everybody, wash dishes and all that.. but when it comes to me going out, i simply just dont understand why they make me feel like im such a bad person for wanting to do what most people my age do, which is go out and have fun.

im not complaining about the obligations and responsibilities i have at home. i do things for my family because i choose to do them. i WANT to do them and i dont mind. But i sometimes feel like they expect soo much from me.. obviously they give all these responsibilities coz they know i can handle it right? I want to be able to have fun like my friends, but i cant seem to do that. i come home from work, i cook , wash the dishes and babysit.... i dont know what to do anymore.. i told chris that one of these days, im just gonna breakdown and not know how to handle it anymore, i was right... it all happened last night.. i havent spoken to my dad since then.. i dont know how to approach him... i guess ill just let things flow and see what happens.. good luck to me....

once again, thanks behbz for being there and helping me out... you never fail me... i love you.

well well well.. today was an OK day... i won tickets to the ALANIS MORISETTE concert at the Shoreline on 07/28. I was listening to ALICE @ 97.3 and i got through the first try.. talk about lucky.. i had to answer a trivia question about Green Day, took a wild guess and got lucky!! yay!!! i can't wait.. i also get this $100 gift certificate to this store in the city so that kinda made my day...my boss bitched at me though coz me and my coworkers made hella noise when they put me on the air.. he said NO BOOTY SHAKING allowed.. watever...i think he just needs to get laid...